This post was originally shared on Mary’s Instagram page, along with the above photo. It was well-received, and Dann suggested Mary ought to share it here on our blog. (Incidentally, Brandi Carlile liked the post, which is about the coolest we’ve been since Frank Turner retweeted us that one time.)
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Acquired what is definitely my new favorite shirt at last night’s @brandicarlile show at @orpheumboston. What an amazing show! 🤘🏼🎶🔥
#bythewayiforgiveyou has become one of my favorite albums of hers. So many good songs: #thejoke, #partyofone. But I have to talk about her song #themother. Hearing that song made me feel so seen, both as a mother and a musician. It actually sounded like my experience of motherhood, when I’ve struggled so much to find models and templates of what parenting looks like to me. And when Brandi brought her daughter out on stage, and then later, when she encouraged a parent in the audience with a crying baby to not feel like they had to leave … powerful.
When my daughter was born, I was terrified that music was over for me. Postpartum depression, a severe lack of sleep, and challenges with breastfeeding compounded that fear. I was sure I could never be a good mom, because I’m a musician … and that I could never be a good musician, because I’m a mom. I was so miserable for a long, long time — longer than six weeks — and was afraid I had ruined so many lives because I hadn’t chosen just one path. Some days it was all I could do to get out of bed and make sure I had a smile for my beautiful baby. I tried to look happy, but I was suffering.
This is #maternalmentalhealth awareness week. No matter how much of an “easy” baby she has, no matter how much she’s smiling, no matter how put together she looks, #askher. Ask that new mom in your life how she is, and read between the lines. We get a lot of messages about how precious the early years are and how fast kids grow, and that is very true. But postpartum struggles are not a matter of choice, not something that can be changed by thinking positively. It’s a medical issue. She might be terrified to talk about it, but she might also be bursting at the seams and begging to be seen. And if you can, wash some dishes, do some laundry, take care of the simple things. It makes a world of difference.
Peace,
Mary
PS – We’ve got a gig coming up THIS SATURDAY in Waltham at The Music Salon, hosted by Linda Marks. We’d love to see you there! And don’t forget about our upcoming EP release parties (you read that right – multiple!), the first of which is on June 7th at Dorchester Brewery with Banded Starling and Kerr Griffin!